i'm just a little girl lost in the moment, i'm so scared but i don't show it;

Yeah, yeah. I can see that everyone's having a bad day. Maybe not depressing day but more of a bad day. Geddit? Nvm.

So, imma just post these lyrics up to make people feel happy. It sucks when people around me are depressed especially shuennie and another certain someone although that someone looks much better than before. Lol.

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze and love is a riddle
I don't know where to go I can't do it alone I've tried
And I don't know why

Slow it down
Make it stop
Or else my heart is going to pop

'Cause it's too much
Yeah, it's a lot
To be something I'm not

I'm a fool
Out of love
'Cause I just can't get enough

I'm just a little girl lost in the moment
I'm so scared but I don't show it
I can't figure it out
It's bringing me down I know
I've got to let it go
And just enjoy the show
*May not be in correct order.

Dear God/Being-From-Another-Dimension/Buddha/Allah/etc..etc..

Have I told you that life's quite okay for me?
Please make Life, stay that way. Maybe sometimes gimme a little treat like Johnny Depp someone great and inspiring to inspire me, probably more freedom, less periods(god forbid the periods), and more great songs. Oh, yeah. Depressing songs are needed too. Just to suit the mood you know. We can't all be optimistic! Oh, and more hot guys. A girl needs her eye candy. I don't mind if they aren't mine. As long as eye candies appear in front of me. Less stupid, idiotic and irritating people in the world. More good friends! Good SPM results btw! Oh, maybe a scholarship or two? Or you can just give my family a windfall...perhaps??

Anyway, thank you god. Only if you give me at least some of those. Most preferably friends, eye candy, and MOOLAH baybeh!!

xoxo,
yr b'lvd hchng(fill in the vowels)

unmoving dreams of black, white and a tinge of grey

I think when I was young, I didn't really care who I was. And I think I was a real bitchy brat too. I can remember having a bitch fit for most of my younger memories. Jeez, I kind of hate myself for that. But I think(yes, think) I have changed for the better(right?!).
So when I was form 1 and 2, I was some seriously playful shit person. I didn't even have an ounce of maturity in me. Then when I was form 3, i met a few great friends(which we still are, well, some of them) and they seriously affected me alot. Maybe its the "ren sheng dao li" 's or something and the ability to see MORE than just the outer core of people.
Yeah, as shallow as it may sound, i used to judge people through looks. Don't judge me, i seriously believe i've changed for the better(better, not perfect). I dunno when but I started to realise that i'm not exactly the image of beautiful itself, i'm not perfect and i'm not the smartest. Deep down inside, i'm the worst amongst the worst(yes, i do realise). I think once i realised that, i changed for the better.
I think I started maturing(mentally, fools, don't think bengkok) since form 3. But despite that, i'm still such a kid when it comes to taking the relationship to another step. I'd probably deny this when people ask me about it but yes, i do have crushes on guys but I end up hating them. Probably coz the guys i have crushes on are just plain jerks. I don't know why I have the tendency to fall for jerks. Maybe its some weird force of nature that affects me. I mean, I see other people and they fall for such nice, smart(not to mention good looking guys) and I totally can see why friends would fall for them but i can't see myself falling for someone similar. This kinda sucks since this totally affects my future relationships.
You know your future is ruined when you fall for a jerk and just won't let go(be afraid of lonlieness, etc etc).I'd probably fall for a jerk, get my money swindled, get knocked up, marry the dude for life, get raped, get more children, grow fat, be cheated on, get dumped with 10 or so children in a small apartment with flies. Yes, I have a feeling my future would be this way if I ever get married. I'm totally OPPOSED to getting married. Thats why i'm flirting my ass off(damn, please let my butt be intact), and i won't get into a relationship no matter what. I don't like the feeling of being tied down to one person, I don't like the sense of belonging. I like to OWNNNNN*lol, dominatrix*!!!!
There's this thing that people believe in, this ideology that everyone has his/her soulmate. So, i ask, if that is so, why are there people who die single in this world? Is this because they had let THE ONE pass them by? Then, that wouldn't really be your soulmate now would it?
I guess maybe its what some people say for reassurance that their not going to lonely forever, or maybe its just me losing the will to dream colours already.
Eitherway, just forget what I wrote here. Its seriously straying far away from the main topic. Lol.

xoxo,
candleandwhipequalsdominatrix

Shut Up and Die...Die...Die...

You can sing that using Rihanna's Shut Up and Drive.

Well, today was rehearsal for our school's sports day and also MY VERY LAST SPORTS DAY.
I think that since I'm form 5 already and its obviously my last year actually attending my very own sports day imma come no matter what! Oh yeah, and there's also the matter of pancaragam. BOO!

*continues singing cacated version of Shut Up and Drive -- Shut Up and Die, Die, DIEE....
So, anyway. There I was sitting in the canteen eating my pack nasi lemak(kosong, as usual). The unusual thing was the wrapping was different and the sambal was...smokin' spicey!!
My face changed from yellow to orange to blue to purple

then to bright red as I was trying not to scream from the pain that was the spicy hot sambal!

Alright, enough about the stupid sambal! Dammit.

So, like any sane person would, I went of to get a drink from our canteen aunty. As you all may know, our canteen aunty(neh...the manly man one,that is actually just a very manly women ) is not exactly THE most polite person but what she did today deserves what I'm about to call her..righhhhtt...abbboooouuuutttt.....NOW----

ByoTCH-IFFER!
BiaTCH-IFFER!

ByaTCH-IFFER!

BiTCH-IFFER!

And before I can continue this story, I have to tell you this story:

Once upon a time, there was a little girl and the big bad wolf

So i bought a bottle of [uh, what do you call tht green thing?!] and as i assumed it was 1.50 i place a buck and a fifty cent coin onto the counter. But i still wasn't really sure since she ups the price whenever she wants and some of the drinks ARE actually rm1.50. So, i stared up at her, willng her to tell me if i had the price correct and she was like, *picks manly nose* OI, fag! 1.60 larr! *scratches crotch* So, I dug out 10 cents and placed it with the aformentioned rm. 1.50.

As I turned around ready to leave with my purchased drink, she turned to her collegue(ooh lala, thats such a fancy word, for her!!) and said, AIYAH! Students these days like to act like stupid idiots ah!

So, I turned towards her, smiled :), and threw the bottle of green juice at her face, then proceeds to jump on her and start screaming: ALALALALALALALLLALALALALALALA!!!!!!!

(coughs. the following did not actually happen.)

REAL SCENE: I just stared at her and walked away while muttering "biatch" with my supposedly "pretends-to-act-stupid-face".

Jeez! I think its damn fucking rude for a person to insult another person right in front of they're face, while pretending to talk to another person! HAVE YOU NO MANNERS OR IS THAT HOW YOUR PARENTS TAUGHT YOU TO LIVE, HUH?!?!?!!? YOU STOOOPPEEEDD BITTCCCCHHH!!!Plus,if i'm SOOOOO stoooopeeeedd and you're sooooo HIGH AND ALMIGHTY, WHY THE FUCKING HELL ARE YOU SELLING US FUCKING YUCKY FOOD IN A LOW MANTAINENCE HIGH SCHOOL CANTEEN WHEN YOU COULD BE CONNING THE SHIT OUT OF OTHER MORE RICH BASTARDS!

That stupid bitch is the main reason why our canteen food sucks like shit! Jeez, with her miserly ways, not only is she robbing us of myour parents' hard earned moolah, but she's also feeding us only half of the portions we pay for.

THE PRODUCTS SHE SELLS SUCKKKKSSS SO BAD!!!! WHY?! COZ SHE'S SELLING IS CHEAPO LOW QUALITY PRODUCTS THAT EVEN THE DOGS ON THE ROAD SIDE WOULDN"T TOUCH WITH A TEN FOOT LONG POLE!

And that is why that stupid bitch should deserve to die naked in a pink feather boa after being raped by a ten foot hamster on her expedition to find true love! Oh, wait, i think she's married and has a child. AHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!1!!!!11

xoxo,

jen"he"ferrrrrrrrrzxzxzxzxzxz!!!

Slow it down, make it stop, or else my heart<3 is going to...

POP!

Lol. If you've been living under a rock, you've probably only heard this song today!

Anyway, I've been out of touch with the internet for what seems like a very, very, VERY LONG time. 3 days, i think. Shut Up! It's been the longest I've survived without a computer! Well, except for the days when i'm off to some trip to Melaka outer space. I've got back some of my results, and they are DEFINITELY BETTER then the ones i got before!! Yeesh! You should see my add maths! I wish I could tear tht paper up, but YOU KNOW WHAT?!!?!?!?!?

Imma find out whats wrong with that DAMN fucking paper and IM NEVER GONNA FUCKING DO IT AGAIN! THEN I'LL ONLY TEAR IT INTO PIECES OF SCUM!! *overreacting*

Adam Khoo?! Who needs him for motivation when i've got me?!

xoxo,
truthbetoldimissyou,truthbetold...I'M LYING!

my childhood would suck without you because your the earth, the sun and the stars, baybeh!

Muahahahaaaa.... This long title thing is kinda addictive. I know it makes no sense but seriously can't help it laaahh. Lol.

I've just realised that(took you long enough, woman!) when i'm tired, i get high. And i actually WORK better when I'm in a tired state. Lol. Contohnya, yeshhtahdayy! I couldn't do anything in the morning but laze around and watch tv on the couch. Then right when i'm about to sleep, I decided to study....ofallsubjects.... MORAL PHYSICS! And I actually made notes. Ouhmaigawwwwddd....(shutup. it's a big deal for me!)
And i continued studying for 1 and a half hours straight!

RAWRR!! I broke my own RECORD!
note: my attention span is as short as Homer's(Simpson)

Shut up. I am bangga of myself. So, to reward myself. I shall go sleep somemore! Tata!!

xoxxzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.............

i know i blog too much but i can't help it, its NEW!

teehee. *ps*

1st day of this one week holiday.

I can't believe it, i wanted to make use of this holiday as much as I want but its not working. As much as i TRY to plan to study. My body just won't let me. FATE won't let me(excuses!). [yes, i've made a timetable. no, i don't follow it at all.]

Alright. It's just the first day but its gonna pass by in a flash and there i'll be, sitting in class, at the last row left side again.

:'(

I hate school. going to school! I hate waking up at an ungodly hour where everyone is still safely tucked up in their perfect little beds with their perfect little teddies beside them. I WANNA *toot*ing be a COLLEGE STUDENT!! So i can *toot*ing SLEEP! As long as i don't have to wake up at 6.

Just gimme some sleep won't you?! JUST EFFING GIMME SOME SLEEP!

*ends rant*

xoxo,
snore.

if you're so great and i'm such a dump, why are you here reading my blog?!

Mmm... Me likey the long long titles. Maybe it'll be my trademark. Lawls.


I guess tomorrow is probably the official day that our holidays start. Mmm... just thinking about this shwweeett shweeet holiday... Imma sleep so much i'll be the SLEEPING UGLY. Probably cos my breaths gonna stink, my face is gonna get all puffy, i'll look like i haven't eaten for days(like a hungry vamp, rawrr)....

Anyway, while we're still on the topic about Sleeping UGLIES and Sleeping Beauties. I was just wondering for a second. How come Sleeping Beauty didn't grow old after so long?! Well, in Disney's version i think they made it more realistic by changing the fact that when the pretty gal got stabbed in the leg finger by a needle, she just slept, i dunnoo..., a few days instead of the classical way, a hundered years?!

So, ANYWAYYY!! If she did sleep that long:
1. How come she hasn't aged one bit?!
2. How can anyone live to more than a hundered years without glorious fooooooooooooood passing their mouths.
3. Can lipstick on her lips actually last that long?!
4. I think the dress she's wearing is supposed to get eaton off by bugs!!
5. If she's been sleeping for THAT long, why hasn't a coroner called on her time of death yet?!
6. Doesn't her parents think that pretty girls that sleep the whole day shud be smackked and rattled till the poor B*tch wakes up(this is how i get woken up)??
7. Poor girl. First kiss after a 100 plus years of living/sleeping and you end up being the one with smelly breath*SHRIEKKK!!!*.

Lol.

xoxo,
muaaahhhhhkkkkkzalakazamalakazu!

this dead end called my brain;

Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!11

First ever post.......in this blog lah.

Yes. I promise to write more instead of "enter"ing

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Lols.

So, anyway. I took a really LONNNGG time to think of my blogs URL -- 46 seconds(yes. long time. *nods knowingly). Dream on dream off is probably the most lame-est thing someone can think of to be his or her blog URL but YA KNOW WHAT?! I am LAME! So, just go climb up a tree, beat your big ol' hairy monkey chest and ACCEPT THIS FACT!!!11

Dream on dream off is what i'm usually facing. I tend to let my imagination go wild, as in...TOO WILD...as in....WILD BOAR*oinkkie oinkks* WILD! So, in order to keep me from daydreaming too much, I have recently(with the help of the professors from SDA University) inserted a device in my head whereby the switch is actually my eyeballs to prevent me from daydreaming too much.

Yeah, so when you see me fading away. Just gimme a poke at the eyeballs and I'M YOOOOOOOOOOOOUUUUUURRRRRRSSSS!!!(continues to sing overrated jason mraz song).

Caution: This device is quite faulty as it is the first and the ONLY dreaming on/off device ever inserted into a humans brain. In case it malfunctions, be ready to get some ass kicking from the persons who's eye you just jabbed.

RAWRRSS!!

as always, my typical sign off message -- xoxo. muaahhhksszzxzxzxzz!!!