this dark and evil force is crushing me into a billion pieces but all i can see is light, and all i can feel is hope

....and then i diieeee!! (okkk. too morbid)

Have just downloaded this new song/old song by Flo Rida called Right Round. Before I elaborate on the song and the tune and the rapping and all, I'd just like to ask one questions. What the hell is his name suppose to mean?! Flo Rida as in Florida(the place) or Flow Rider in nigga language or just Flo Rida(which is his real name). Will check it out sometime but best if someone would tell it to my face XD.

Anyway, i'm like enjoying this song and bopping my head to the chorus when i realised that i don't really fancy rap. All i do is sing along to the chorus part which is i gotta say, THE BEST PART of the song and also THE ONLY LISTEN-ABLE PART. And when the rap part comes my mind flows away to what i was looking at on the pc screen.

But who cares what i think right...

xoxo,
muahkx!

You spin ma head right round, right round,
When you go down, when you go down, down.
(And, whats up with the lyrics?! It sounds... DIIIRRRRTTTT-ehhhh!!)

And i'm tired of being all alone, and this solitary moment makes me want to come back home...x4 XD

Garrrhh!! My msn is being a cib**. LOL.

Anyway, i'm listening to "your call" by secondhand serenade. And I know some of you people think that his songs are seriously over emo but whatevvss you know. People need their daily/weekly/monthly(for gals probably) dose of emo songs.

I got this vid out of youtube and it's this dude playing this song in piano for the girl that he loves. I think he's kinda cute, in a way that he has dimples and plays the piano. XD Oh, and that he's playing this for a girl he loves.

So, to whoever you are. Hope the girl falls head over heels for you once she hears this awesome rendition of YOUR CALL by Secondhand Serenade.

:)



CAN ANYONE GET ME THE MUSIC SCORE? It seems kinda simple but there are lots of sharp and flat notes. And I really suck at identifying those notes. Contohnya, I still can't play River Flow In You by Yiruma because the starting has lots of sharps and flats and i don't know which sharp or flat is which black button. :(

xoxo,
call, i'm desperate for your voice.

you know something is wrong when you go beserk over a 50 cent coin. I'm a suckaaa!!!

Ehehhee.... Finally gave Shuennie "THE MOST AWKWARD PRESENT OF THE YEAR THAT WON THE MOST AWKWARD PRESENT OF THE YEAR AWARD" . LOL.

Sorry, shuen. Wasn't sure what to get you when you've got almost everything and we know you don't really approve of us wasting so much ka-chingggs $$. So, there it is. I swear we didn't waste more than... RM10.

XD(my ugly betty winner smile)


Anyway, planned out my study schedule last sunday and... GUESS WHAT?! I'm not even following it. Bahahha. This sucks. :(
Exams are apparently on 6th of May.
Gah, !@#$%.

it's small, it doesn't worth alot, its from lots of people, and it comes from the heart, i think... :)

I hope you'll like it.

XD

xoxo,
youknowwho.

trying not to roll my eyes till my eyeballs get unscrewed from their sockets and just fall off

Muahahahhahahaaaaa....

Guess who's skipping pancaragam again tomorrow?
Uh, me la, DUHHH!!
Hey! Don't judge me. I'mma go mcd to do the magazine with mings, shuennnn-eh!, and qian heng. It feels like a waste of time(i obviously am not betting then im gonna win) but its like, another form of stress to erase the stress I have in school now. I guess, the stress in school/studies is much worse than the others. Being in school reminds me that I'm form 5 and that SPM is coming. Yeah. That totally sucks.

Anyway, we'll be studying for 200+ days, and suffering for another 4 weeks after, just to take 10 subjects in 9 measly days. Like, ftw right?!
This better be WORTH it. I'm so serious.

I've pondered quite some time what I'd be taking in college/uni. Now, there are only 3 on my mind that I can actually imagine myself doing:
1. BioTech (like, seriously overrated/overtaken by LALA mui's and zai's)


2. Hospitality and Culinary Arts (OMG! Like, super fun weiii!! I mean, i don't really like the cleaning up hotel rooms part, but I super like the cooking part, I mean, if I could be one of those food tasters all my life and flying around the world to taste food while people pay me tons of cash. That would be my TOTAL DREEEAAAMMMM!!! Wait... i've strayed from the topic. Where culinary arts is to learn how to cook and that is seriously interesting! I'd LOVE to learn how to cook, but sucks when you don't have the basic. BoOoooooo)

3. LAW (*plays the DUM dum duuummm music*) I think, I'd like to be a lawyer. I mean, I don't necessarily have to go and fight in the courtrooms right. Yeah, I'm not really interested in those. There are types tht just sit in the office drawing up agreements for banks or divorcce papers. Funnnn!!! Fun to know about a scandal. NOT FUN to be in one. :(


Lol. ignore me.

xoxo,
i'mhyperrrrrrrzzxzxzzzxzzxz

i think its going too fast too furious that i can't grasp it anymore.

I'm doing my oral presentation on Plastic Surgery. :)


Did you know that you seriously can do surgery everywhere. And I'm not talking about the "vah-jay-jay" only.

Umbillicoplasty is done when someone is not satisfied with their belly button. So you can choose to have in going in orrr coming out. If you get my drift. Lol.

Alright, hee ching OUT.


xoxo,
hee ching *muaaahhzxzxzxzxz!!!*

i'm dropping into this large black hole where everything is just bliss, then when it ends, i hit the ground and just DIE. :(

Lol. Great. I'm in my long-post-title-mood now. :)



MSSD Bball has FINALLY ENDED. Yes, its finally the end of boy-ogling season and back to studying. :( Well, maybe i'm not that enthusiastic about boy-ogling(seeing that i didn't do it, much) but more enthusiastic about pontenging to go koperasi. I've skipped classes for one whole week now. Lol.





This week -- Ponteng week





Next week -- Finish up homework from last week and this week. Oh, and pray that there will still be time to study. GAH!

Ooohhh.....prettyy...

I hate exam year. I hate being clueless when people ask me questions that i SHOULD noe but don't. I hate going to school. I hate homework. I hate that it's been four months and we are still stuck in the early chapters. I hate this part right here by PussyCat Dolls a.k.a c*bai mao wawa(direct translation in chinoise) is a song. I hate stress. I hate that everyone is pressuring me. I hate that there is so much to do but so little time. I hate i'm so vulnerable. I hate that there are opportunities but i can't take it. I hate that something that came out of a book is coming true. Oh, have i mentioned I hate homework?!

xoxo,

uoyssimammi

OoOooOoooOooOooooOOO....Bball.

I think its obvious whats happening in my school right now, most probably from the title of this post orrrrr the thousands of blog posts from teenagers around petaling utama blabbing on about MSSD's in our school. Yeah. OUR SCHOOL.

Apparently, our schools the tuan rumah. I have to say that I am was quite excited that there will be new people coming into school. Fresh faces especially. Rather than the dead end that is our school. Oh, note that I said "WAS" instead of "AM". Yeah, you get what I mean. I'm not gonna elaborate further.

Anyway, been working for koperasi the past 3 days. XD I looooooooovvveeeee working for koperasi. I LLOOOOOOOOOOVVVVVVVEEEE it coz it gives me a chance to ponteng that mind numbing thing I/we do every morning from 7 to 2 in the afternoon, that is school of course. Well, technically, we'd be in school. Mentally/Literally, we'd be in basketball heaven. Not that I care much for the latter.

Oh, have I told you that I'm still stuck at finding the suitable topic for my english oral test. This...TOTALLY sucks. Probably will ask the HONNZzzZZz(which is how I will refer hon yu as from now on) can gimme some ideas. Will ya?

Oh, drama competition tomorrow. Going as support. :)

xoxo,
pontenging,melove.

here's my brain, my heart, my courage... what more do you want from me? my soul?!

Well, thats what the wizard of Oz would say if he was having PMS the day the tin can, the hay stack, the obese kitty and the irritating girl with the dog came to find him.

I think its time to come clean with my hormones. I'm officially announcing that my hormones have gone haywire(like anybody has realised it already).
If you're in my class, you've probably realised that i've been a sourpuss these few days. Yes, repel me if you like, i know i've been a bitch. But hey, I tried to feel happy. At least I've tried.

Have you?

I've seen stares of people who think i must be nuts. I don't wanna be seen that way but you know what, its tiring to be so concious of myself. To act as if everythings fine when things are obviously NOT.
Yeah, i once told dan that when i'm in "that" mood, the worst question you could ask me is if I were okay. Jeez, are you BLIND. It's obvious i'm not. When everythings all cheery for me, there's usually something wrong. And yeah, this doesn't apply to me only. There are some others that actually take it to an extent where all they can do is smile and keep their sadness repressed inside like fools, poor pathetic fools that realise it but can't do anything about it.
It's hard sometimes and tiring to show your TULAN-TED/PEPETED(whichever suits you best) face to everyone when you know its not their fault but sometimes you just don't feel like smiling, at all. But its harder to keep everything repressed inside like a dumb person. Dumb as in cannot talk okay! Dumb that all you can do is recieve but not give, to listen but cannot talk.
I believe/know i'm repressing stuff, and there are loads of unhappy stuff that I just won't and couldn't tell out. Maybe its my pride and ego stopping me, or maybe its just me not wanting you guys to ask: "Are you...okay?". Hurts my part-male ego and makes me feel like crap(i hate feeling like crap, just so you know). So, Keep your sympathies to yourself, seriously!
For the people out there that are repressing seriously depressing stuff, you should just tell at least ONE person, someone to trust. If there is no one, and you find that even your best friend has been lying to you bloody face, open an anonymous blog and start flaming all you like. :)

Thats all.

xoxo,
totowantsadoggiebiscuit.

konnichiwaaaa,sayonaraaa, toyottaaa, hondaaaa....and everything japanese you can think of.

Nah. This post is not reli japanese themed. Just wanna tell you guys that some Japanese people came over to school today to -- DONATE A SEWING MACHINE?!
Anyway, the whole school was fawning over them like jakun monkey's that never seen people of another race/country before. Sad to say, i was also a lil' psyched.

Hey! Don't blame me. This school that lacks of potential hawt people can make a celibate virgin feel desperate.

Anyway, they came over to visit us while we were making alcohol during chem and everyone wuz like "konnichiwaa...". -.- Don't look at me. I didn't say that. It was awfully awkward to try to speak their language. They must think we're 3rd world 'tards.

Oh, btw. Took a photo with them. Lol.

**********************************************
Wuz super pissed this morning for some special reason that i don't wanna say. All that I can say is that:
1. sorry that i'm always so stubborn and hard-headed.
2. not quite happy that i'm considered useless by others.

*highlight if you're interested*
I think thats wat people think of me. Someone useless with a big mouth. I do admit that I am useless at alot of stuff and i'm not very talented in art, sciences or sports but i seriously don't wanna be treated like a cripple, or a retard.
You don't think I wanna pursue something that I can be known for? Rather than just plain ol' hee ching. An average student, weak in sports and artistic stuff, has bad taste in music, etc...etc...?!
I feel so pathetic knowing that people around me are doing something, and that they are special, so much more special than me. Around these special people, I feel like the before-superpowers-Mohinder Suresh or Ando. Their lives are filled with people with special abilities, everyone but them. I think I can really understand why Mohinder injected himself with the serum thingy in Season 3 Part 1.
Bah. Forget it. I'm overreacting. I always do. Who cares about being an invalid. I might as well just rot in my worthless little grave like now and forever always.

This worthlessness is slowly killing me cell by cell, tissue by tissue, organ by organ, and then i'm just dead and forever forgotten.

xoxo,
visitmeatmyworthlesslilgravewheni'mgone