here's my brain, my heart, my courage... what more do you want from me? my soul?!

Well, thats what the wizard of Oz would say if he was having PMS the day the tin can, the hay stack, the obese kitty and the irritating girl with the dog came to find him.

I think its time to come clean with my hormones. I'm officially announcing that my hormones have gone haywire(like anybody has realised it already).
If you're in my class, you've probably realised that i've been a sourpuss these few days. Yes, repel me if you like, i know i've been a bitch. But hey, I tried to feel happy. At least I've tried.

Have you?

I've seen stares of people who think i must be nuts. I don't wanna be seen that way but you know what, its tiring to be so concious of myself. To act as if everythings fine when things are obviously NOT.
Yeah, i once told dan that when i'm in "that" mood, the worst question you could ask me is if I were okay. Jeez, are you BLIND. It's obvious i'm not. When everythings all cheery for me, there's usually something wrong. And yeah, this doesn't apply to me only. There are some others that actually take it to an extent where all they can do is smile and keep their sadness repressed inside like fools, poor pathetic fools that realise it but can't do anything about it.
It's hard sometimes and tiring to show your TULAN-TED/PEPETED(whichever suits you best) face to everyone when you know its not their fault but sometimes you just don't feel like smiling, at all. But its harder to keep everything repressed inside like a dumb person. Dumb as in cannot talk okay! Dumb that all you can do is recieve but not give, to listen but cannot talk.
I believe/know i'm repressing stuff, and there are loads of unhappy stuff that I just won't and couldn't tell out. Maybe its my pride and ego stopping me, or maybe its just me not wanting you guys to ask: "Are you...okay?". Hurts my part-male ego and makes me feel like crap(i hate feeling like crap, just so you know). So, Keep your sympathies to yourself, seriously!
For the people out there that are repressing seriously depressing stuff, you should just tell at least ONE person, someone to trust. If there is no one, and you find that even your best friend has been lying to you bloody face, open an anonymous blog and start flaming all you like. :)

Thats all.

xoxo,
totowantsadoggiebiscuit.