will you meet me halfway?

I'm feeling real nervous.

I wonder if I can actually make it through SPM? Could I?

I mean, everyone seems to be improving but me.

Wonder why am I still stuck at this standstill state??

My forecast results are a total mess. For now, only my chem and maths has gotten and A- and an A. And I know the others won't be pretty either. So, does this mean that I won't be scoring the straight A's everyone has been expecting of me?

Does this mean I'm already doomed to living a life without getting a degree? Unable to go to college because I couldn't even score well for school trials? Unable to gain respect because I wasn't well educated? Not being able to earn as much as the others because of a list of B and C's and maybe D's?

I mean, I'm trying hard. Real hard. But I just can't do it. Don't think I'll be able to live up to the expectations of my mother. :( Don't think I'll be able to get a discount for my college fees. Don't think I'll be able to lift the burden.

There's only 42 days left.

What could I do?

What CAN I do?


xoxo,
the future is a series of moving pictures that are going at too high of a velocity that all i see is a mass of grey and white.